And Now I Rest

At this point no running will help. The training is complete. Now I ice, stretch and rest. This morning I ran my last weekend run of nine miles at Lululemon. It gave me the space to reflect on how I’ve been feeling this past week. I have been incredibly tense and stressed. I haven’t been my usual self. I haven’t been laughing as much, I haven’t had as much energy, and I’ve been quieter than usual. Yesterday I almost bailed on a BBQ because I wanted to stay home. That’s SO not Cristina. Today during our run Ellen mentioned that often running bloggers are too positive, and don’t show any vulnerability. It’s always “I ran 20 miles and it was amazing then I had an incredible brunch with my BFFs and went to the movies. Life is just dandy!” So I’ll be honest with you and tell you that last week I haven’t felt like my happy self.

Brent named it when he said that when he’s talking to me he can tell that in the back of my mind I’m thinking about the marathon. It’s true. I’ve been googling all kinds of crazy things. I’ve utilized pretty much every marathon pace calculator out there, even this specific to the Boston course pacing plan. I’ve been reading forums with wind predictions, nutrition advice and taper tips. None of it will help.

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So what exactly am I obsessing over? Honestly, and those who know me best might disagree, but HONESTLY I am not nervous about time. Of course I want to do well. I really want to do well, but if things don’t go well I know I can always sign up for another marathon. I feel tense and nervous because it’s hard. Running a marathon is really hard. It will never be easy and I am scared.

Every week I pick a week focus. I write it on my moleskin and reflect on if that focus was prioritized Sunday nights before selecting a new week focus.

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I pick one for work and one for my personal life. For work it might be precise praise or sweat the small stuff (all you ed people know what this means) and personal might be focusing on going to bed earlier or spending quality time with Brent. This week my personal focus is to laugh, have fun and be present. I’ll be running a marathon in a week. Nothing is going to change that, and there is no reason to mope around and feel sorry for myself. It’s BOSTON! Also, my life is so much more than running. I have so much to celebrate and be thankful for. Here is everything NON running that happened this weekend.

Saturday 51 scholars and their families showed up to our first registration day for Equitas Academy. Here I am with Cecilia, my incredible School Operations Manager. I am so lucky to work with her! Our new families are so enthusiastic and thankful to join the Equitas community. I am humbled to work in Pico Union, such a welcoming community.

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Brent and I celebrated a big step for Equitas Academy #3 with KOGI! In the evening we went to Brent’s co-workers BBQ.

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We stopped by Playa Provisions on the way home for cookies and ice-cream. With all my travel it’s been a MONTH since I’ve been here. Too long.

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I finally used one of my Anthropologie gift cards. Bought this shirt. Note: That is NOT me in the picture below.

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Brent and I relaxed in the apartment hot tub then made smoky tacos with chipotle sauce. They look kinda gross here, but I swear they were good.

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With everything going on this upcoming week it won’t be difficult to focus on fun. We’re hosting our second registration night at Equitas, I’ll be interviewing a few Kindergarten candidates, Wednesday is happy hour night with K2 girls, I’m getting a massage, we’re having our Back On My Feet monthly meeting, and maybe I can convince Alaina to go on an evening beach walk?

Woah, I feel better already. Time to go prep my breakfast, pack my lunch and get ready for a HAPPY week!

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2 thoughts on “And Now I Rest

  1. Do not depend on the hope of results…You may have to face the fact that your work will apparently be worthless and you achieve no results at all, if not perhaps results opposite to what you expect. As you get used to this idea, you start to concentrate not on the results but on the value, the rightness, the truth of the work itself.

    Good Luck in Boston

  2. Whatever, I think the real reason you haven’t been as happy is because you haven’t had as much QT with the sister 😉

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